So..a thread I was replying to got me to thinking that I needed to revisit a synastry and composite between me and a guy I know. A little background, we met, instantly clicked..one thing lead to another..I felt guilty about it and told him that I didn't want to hang out anymore..then I changed my mind and he was cool with it and we decided to be friends..but we don't talk much (or at all). I feel like he hates me, I'm afraid to contact him 99% of the time so I don't, but when I get the rare urge too he always replies but then I look to deep into it and read it as him just being nice and not genuinely wanting to talk to me so I disappear again.
Anyway, since like yesterday I'm having the strongest urge to reach out to this man but I'm TERRIFIED to because I think he hates me. But I honestly just want to hit him up and ask him if we can start totally over from scratch...no sex, just pure platonic friends. From the moment we met we talked non stop. So I know at least a friendship could come from this right?
And yes I know our composite it totally tragic and sad, with pretty much all of the planets in cardinal signs..and don't get me started on that critical degree ascendant..oh and let's not forget that horrid Uranus siting right smack on top of the descendant *sigh*
So what say you, should I try one more time..or should I just let this go and just hope this urge passes quickly?